Six Years of Cacao, Spirit, and the Path Home to Myself
A reflection on healing, destiny, cacao medicine, and six years of walking the path of sacred reciprocity.
Remembering My Soul Work
Six years ago, one moment, one yes, changed the entire course of my life. While the world closed down in March of 2020, I was in Costa Rica opening up — remembering my soul work, remembering who I came here to be. I returned home with twenty pounds of cacao and a heart newly awakened. Every day for a year, I sat with Mama Cacao, integrating my healing journey, softening the deep medicine work I had been walking for years, weaving together pieces of myself that were not yet fully formed.
My connection with Costa Rica, with the land and the medicines of the Amazon, was so strong that I was certain I was meant to stay there forever. But Spirit whispered, “Do not be selfish. The world needs your medicine. America needs healing. You must go.” So I came home, carrying twenty pounds of cacao and a calling too powerful to ignore. Those of you who have sat with us know the magical story of how that cacao found me.
Day after day, Mama Cacao spoke: “Share this medicine. This is the healing the world needs — for the earth, for the hearts of humanity.”
The First Ceremony
I had already been deep in my spiritual path since 2015, but when Spirit urged me to host a cacao ceremony — and gifted me the flow to do so — I could no longer deny it. On Lions Gate, August 8th, 2020, I held my first cacao ceremony. The activations, the souls who gathered, the cosmic weaving that took place… there was no denying the truth of it. Right before ceremony began, two friends gifted me paintings of myself as my lioness, along with the exact necklace I had worn in my last ayahuasca ceremony in Costa Rica — a necklace I hadn’t touched since that day. It was the affirmation, the validation, the high-five from Spirit I needed. My ego melted. My heart opened. And I stepped fully into being the vessel and channel I came here to be.
A Life of Sacred Reciprocity
Since then, my life has been a series of divine experiences, reminders, and synchronicities — all guiding me deeper into this soul path I chose long before this lifetime. I know I chose this body, this voice, this form so the messages could be heard and understood by many. It does not matter that my soul has worn many colors, many skins before; in this lifetime, I am here to remind others of their connection to the earth, to themselves, to Spirit. To remember that we are nature, not separate from it.
For the last six years, I have had the honor of touching the lives of many. Today, I get to walk this sacred path with my best friend and partner, and with our daughters by our side. Together, we travel and share ceremony, weaving healing through cacao and helping others remember her gentle, powerful spirit. We work with the same family, the same cacao that called me in March 2020, now bound even more deeply to the land they and now we call home. We have chosen a life of sacred reciprocity: tending to the land, protecting her, learning from her, and giving back in every way we can.
Six Years of Devotion
Over these six years, we have held space for thousands of hearts, witnessed countless transformations, and been blessed again and again by the beauty of this work. This is my greatest gift — the knowing to surrender to divine guidance, to trust the unfolding, to serve with devotion. As we celebrate our sixth birthday, I bow to every lesson, every blessing, every rebirth… and to all that is still to come.